Monday, February 25, 2013

In The World, There Is Balance

Have I ever told y'all of my belief that everything balances out?  When I was in high school, and I had a really crap day, I would often console myself by saying that the next day would be better because it had to balance out the bad one.  More often than not, this would prove to be true.  Honestly, I'm not so sure whether this belief was a self-fulfilling prophesy or rather just an observation made over time, but it was true 99.9% of the time.  A bad day or bad week was often followed by a good day or good week.

As I grew older, I started to forget this belief.  A string of bad days turned into a string of bad weeks, which turned into a string of bad months, which finally became a string of bad years.  Sure, there were some good things which happened in those weeks and months and years, but generally it wasn't anything to balance out the crap that I was feeling or going through.  So, over time, I forgot about my rule of balance.  A day was merely the luck of the draw and was sometimes influenced by hard work.  However, hard work could be easily negated by illness or misfortune, or just someone's crappy attitude.

And today, I'm trying very hard to remember this rule of balance.  You see, today has been utter crap.  Not just the 'I haven't slept enough, so I'm in a bad mood' kind of crap, but rather the 'I haven't slept enough, so I'm in a bad mood, and I'm dealing with multiple tax and legal issues, all of which are due to stupid errors and aren't my fault, but that I still have to deal with' kind of crap.  Really, in the long run, this will mean nothing, but it's really been a shitty day.  So, it would be really difficult to remember my rule of balance if it weren't for one thing: Yesterday was fabulous.

Yesterday, Hans and I had a real day off.  Not a day off where we still have to take care of foster dogs.  Not a day off where you're visiting family and have family activities planned (no offense to family, but that can be exhausting).  Not a day off where you only work the morning, but have off the rest of the day.  No.  We had a true, honest-to-goodness day off where we slept until 10:30, only did things we wanted to do, slept some more, and enjoyed time with friends.  It's the best day I've had in almost 3 years.

So, of course today had to be kind of crappy.  Yesterday was too good to not have something to balance it out.  Maybe tomorrow things will be good again.  Who knows?  All I know is that I'm kind of happy to have remembered my rule of balance, and I look forward to more good days in the future (somehow they help me to forget about the bad days).


  1. ohh, I feel for you. Taxes certainly are a common cause of stress and worry (and such a nuisance!) and I hope everything gets resolved for you soon! Glad you had a good day yesterday!

  2. hope you are having a better week!! just trolling blogs. i have a doodle, looks like yours is one too! betsy in alaska