Finally, I'm starting to feel slightly back to normal. The keyword there is slightly. Let me just say that post-marathon blues are real, and they're terrible. This year I completely expected them. I've had them after every other marathon, and I figured they'd be there. I also figured that, since I was expecting them, they might not be so bad. Woo-boy was I wrong!
As you all know, two of my dearest friends came to visit right before the marathon. This did a few things. First, it boosted my mood and made me feel so very loved. Second, it forced me to take a bit of time off and rest pre-race. Lastly, it made post-marathon so bitter-sweet, because it meant I had to bid them farewell. I very much wish that my friends lived closer to me. The past week I've been moping around, trying to plan trips to see them. I've been asking myself if I could fly up in a few weeks (no, I can't), or if we could all plan a mini-vacation together (difficult at best). I miss my friends!!! So, that's left me in a funk.
Also, my friends weren't the only ones who left the day after the marathon. A week before the marathon, Hans' grandmother passed away, so the three of us all flew down for the funeral. Since the funeral and burial were in different states (long story), this meant quite a bit of flying in a very short period of time. By the end, I was wiped! It took a little while for the shear physical exhaustion to set in, but when it did I could hardly move. Picking Anna up or playing with her was more effort than I could stand, and for the latter half of the week I just wanted to crawl in a hole and sleep. Of course, my body was completely out of whack, and sleep was somewhat evasive. To put things plainly, this physical exhaustion did nothing to boost my mood. I was too tired to be happy (I was grumpy), and I ended up just being sad because I was too tired to do things that usually make me happy (play with Anna, hike, etc). It wasn't so great.
And lastly, there's the endorphin crash. Runner's high is real, and after 26.2 miles there's a lovely intoxication. The world is rosy and everything is wonderful. And then your body realizes you're not running quite as much and suddenly you crash. And this crash was so, so bad. The worst part was that I could think rationally and tell myself exactly what this was, but that did nothing to make me feel better. I just wanted to be left alone and mope.
Luckily, I have great support. Hans has been wonderful. He's pushed me to do the things I absolutely need to do, but he's also made sure I've gotten plenty of rest. He played with Anna when I couldn't, and he took care of the housework when I simply didn't want to. He's made sure I've gotten the nutrition I need, and he's taken time to simply hold me and tell me he's here. Boy am I fortunate!
So, now I'm returning to normal. I'm hoping I get through this hectic and crazy week, and I'm looking forward to the next big thing!