Thursday, May 8, 2014

More Body Issues

Before I get into the heart of this post, I wanted to share with everyone the results from my doctor's appointment yesterday.

Week: 34 1/2
Weight gain: 1 pound since my last appointment, 27 pounds for the whole pregnancy so far
Blood Pressure: 120 / 78
Swelling: Minimal
Fetal HR: 141 bpm
Overall: A++

I was officially told yesterday that, should I go into labor now, they wouldn't do much to try to stop it.  Baby looks healthy, I'm healthy, and, while the baby might need some time in NICU should she decide to appear now, the chances of any major complications are minimal.  That's pretty shocking!  Anyway, a great report.

That, however, is not the heart of this post.  The heart of this post is more about something that's been plaguing me since the beginning of this pregnancy.  More than weight, it's body image. 

I always thought that women who called themselves fat or grotesque or who felt like a cow while pregnant were being silly.  I mean, there's a child in there!  Everyone understands that.  From a purely mental standpoint, I understand that.

The problem is, I've spent so long and so much time fighting a body like this.  My belly is huge, walking leaves me winded, my hips are wider.  Really, all the things I used to want to tweak when I looked in the mirror are the exact things that I feel are changing most now.  Heck, I remember trying on clothes before I was pregnant and saying, "Ugh!  No!  This makes me look preggers."  So, essentially, I'm not necessarily loving my current figure.  Sure, there are moments when I see a round, basketball of a belly and smile.  Yes, there are times when I feel simply kick-a** for being at the gym.  However, in daily life, I can't help but think how frumpy and large I look.

Here's the thing, though.  I know this is completely silly.  Simply looking at my doctor's report from the other day I can see how silly these thoughts are.  I'm obviously doing well health-wise.  It's sometimes hard to remember all that, though.  I am trying, but it's simply hard.

There is a bit of an upside to this, though.  Mainly, this keeps me motivated.  I want to stay active and eat healthy for myself and for the health of my baby, but I also simply want to look nice.  I want to ensure that my hips only spread because of the baby, not because I was hungry and ate too much pizza.  I'll push myself through a little bit of sciatic pain because I don't want to simply sit like a log and eat.  Then, once I've worked out, once I've chosen watermelon over ice cream (or occasionally a fruit Popsicle over ice cream), I'll feel great about myself.  Those are the moments I feel virtuous and pretty.  Those are the moments I'm most likely to look in the mirror and see a strong, healthy woman-with-child staring back at me.  And I'll smile...until the 110 lb Ironman triathlete walks past, fully nude and perfectly waxed.  At that point, I simply think, "Well, damn."

So, I guess this post has two points.  1) To let anyone else who feels this way to know that she's not alone.  2) To find out how you deal with body image issues.  Whether or not you're male or female, pregnant or not, we all have body issues.  What do you do to make yourself feel a bit better?


  1. Maybe I'm weird but even as I got big I loved the way my prego body looked. (Let's be honest- it was probably the boobs.) Focus on the parts you do like and try not to beat yourself up. I took pride in the word fat. I told anyone who asked that I was feeling fat and happy. Pretty soon it wasn't a bad thing to be big. In all reality you aren't fat, you are stretching out for your baby. :) you are going to be super impressed by how quickly you'll be below your pre pregnancy weight!

  2. I agree with Katie about how quickly you will loose the pre pregnancy weight because you are eating healthy. It's not easy putting on extra weight when we're pregnant, esp in this day and age. But it does seem people with weight issues tend to eat healthier during pregnancy for just that reason. Just remember to be patient with yourself after the baby comes. Believe it or not, that's when you feel even worse (at least I did) but give it time and you will lose the baby weight naturally.

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