So, in case you couldn't tell, I was a little upset while writing my last running-related post. I felt fat and out of shape. I felt slow. I felt like I might not even be able to run the marathon this year. Luckily, I'm feeling much better today.
Last week, after my seven mile run, I was NOT motivated to run at all. I very much had a defeatist attitude, and I easily found excuses to not go. Monday was a rest day, so I was fine not running. Tuesday I wasn't feeling well (truth) and it was raining (that's never stopped me before). Wednesday it was still raining, and I was just SO tired (excuses). Thursday, I finally stopped making excuses and went out. I ended up doing about 5 miles (2 more than I was supposed to) plus an additional two miles training with Hans. Well, at least I made up for not running Tuesday or Wednesday. Let me tell you, that five miles was H-A-R-D. It was hot, I was tired, and I think I ended up walking the last half mile or so. Saturday, I was scheduled for eight miles, and I was scared. I hadn't run 8 miles in over 6 months. Would I be able to do it? I had trouble with five miles just two days before. How could I handle an additional three? Last week's seven miles was depressing and I was left feeling completely drained. Could I add anything on to that? I decided to take it slow and just see what I could do.
It certainly wasn't bad. While it wasn't my best run ever, it could have been much, much worse. I ended up walking for about a block twice, but those were after six miles. It was a hot day and a hilly route, but I made it all the way. When I stopped my Garmin, I looked at my pace: 11:13 min/mile. I was disappointed as I had hoped for under 11:00, but I decided to compare my pace to last year's. I had expected to see a 10:36 for this equivalent run last year, but that's not what I saw at all. I saw 11:08 min/mile. That's only a 5 second difference, and that could easily be accounted for by the fact that I didn't stop my Garmin at the SAGs this year like I did last year. So, guess what that means. I'm pretty much on the same pace I was last year! Huzzah!
In addition, my run this morning was easier than it was in weeks past. I took things at a much faster pace (about 10:00 min/mile), and didn't feel completely drained at the end. I was happy to be done, but I quite possibly could have pulled out another mile at that pace.
So, I guess I'm getting stronger. My endurance is building, and my fears have all been for naught. I'm still worried about a few things, but I'm getting there...slowly.