Let me start by saying that Mom is doing well. She'll start chemo next week, and she's in good spirits. Admittedly, we're kind of driving each other nuts, but that's a whole other story. Right now, though, we are both preparing ourselves for battle.
Mom is resting, recuperating, and trying to eat healthy. I am arming myself with as much knowledge as possible about her disease. I'm reading books, searching websites, scheduling doctors appointments. I'm creating anti-cancer meal plans, and I'm just trying to prepare for what's to come.
Hans has been amazing through all of this. He's been helping with meals and cleaning. He'll come home from a day of work and carry Anna around all evening simply because he knows I'm exhausted. He's just been wonderful.
Honestly, the only one I really worry about is Anna. She's too young to understand what's going on, but she can certainly sense the stress. I worry about what sorts of effects it will have on her as she grows. I worry that I'm not spending enough relaxing, Mommy-daughter time with her. I worry that, when she's fussy, it's not because she's an infant and they cry, but rather because she's too stressed out. Of course, all those thoughts leave me more stressed, and the vicious cycle repeats. To alleviate the situation, I'm trying to make sure I spend at least an hour of good, quality time with her each day. Yesterday, that time was spent swinging on the porch swing during a gentle summer rain (it was beautiful). Today, that time was spent nursing in bed and watching Netflix. I love that hour each day, because I can feel both of us relax. It's important.
And my one relief is that the kennel is continuing to do well. I'm not back in full swing like I'd anticipated, so I'm relieved that it can continue functioning with only a little guidance. My staff is great, and I'm constantly getting compliments on them. While I'm making an effort to be there a little more, it's helpful to know I can focus on family as needed.
So, that's life for now. It's exhausting, and it's not ideal, but it's my life. At least I'm able to wake up each morning and greet the day For now, though...
Good night!
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